My Life is one big Paradox

I have enjoyed confidence and contentment that I am not sure I have ever known over the last few weeks.

Yet there are things I want or need to do that I hesitate to do.

The Question "What do I need to do in this situation (relationship, idea, etc.) to honor God?" both clarifies everything and doesn't.

It is so hard to tell the difference between wisdom and fear when it is a debate in acting or not when unsure of the outcome of if the action is even necessary.

I need to live a life without fear, and yet i don't want to hurt people just to live out my life without fear... which one is honoring God... is there a way to live without fear, honor God, and not hurt people?

On one hand I honestly and accurately say life is good and I am happy, on the other there are many things up in the air that I am unsure how to deal with or fix.

This seems like a welcome to life type thing, but it is also incredibly confusing.

Also the idea of Graduating in May... incredibly scary and sad, and very encouraging and exciting.

Thank the Lord I have a Father who knows how to give good gifts, and desires me to grow and has a place prepared for me...

a place I am going...

and a place I already am. (Colossians 3)

hmmmm.