So I have not posted here in a while. Life has been good and bad at the same time, and definitely busy.
I have been noticing the lack of community rather acutely recently.
Last week I saw my girlfriend for about 3 hours and one of my bestfriends, who also lives with me, for about 20 minuets. In the evenings alone I watched a lot of Hulu and felt like crap. I felt alone and started to see trains of thought that I thought were long behind me come back.
I was journaling at church today I started to recall some things I used to take for granted when I was in IV before graduating that I took for granted that I really miss now.
1. Being asked how God and I are on a regular basis at random by many different people.
2. Having a community of people to serve.
3. People to discuss my day with or plans for the future.
4. A group of people that were not afraid to challenge me.
5. A place to be reminded of who God is when I forget.
I have only experienced a small bit of this since graduation and the other graduates moving from this end of the state. With Jamie being a small group leader we have gotten to have a few awesome talks about how that is going with her and sometimes Joe and I talk.
But both of them have been on mostly opposite schedules of mine as of late and busy themselves. Plus most of Joe and my conversations have been about business-y things lately as we both are rather either arrogant or ambitious (not sure which) and trying to start many different enterprises.
I have not joined a church yet because I have not gone around and check out some of the ones I have heard about. I have been going mostly to [nlcf] because it is what I am used to and where Jamie and Michael (my little brother) go. The sermons have also been on Exodus lately and I have found them really interesting and applicable.
Not until today, however, did I consider the possibility that I was simply over thinking my church choice. They do many of the things I want to be involved with and have an older congregation I could get to know. And today I also realized that Joe, Jamie, and Michael all go there and are most of the people I actually see on a regular basis. After a week of minimal human interaction it is nice to see people that I love.
So now the question is do I decided to look at other places, that would be better in some ways and not in others, or do I decide the seeing my brother and girlfriend on Sunday mornings is a good reason to pick a church for the time being?
Being an over-thinker sucks. But regardless of the source I need to find community soon, because I cannot live this life alone.
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"Where there is no vision, the people perish..." Proverbs 29:18
2 comments:
I hear ya dude. Holly and I both miss the immediate community that comes from being in school. We do have each other, but we're still getting used to living with each other so it's hard to make time to "get out" with friends. But as it is, holler if you want to grab a meal!
my thoughts on you going to church where your friends are vs. going somewhere else would be to go where there is community.
obviously it shouldn't JUST be about community. but as someone who's recently experienced this, church without community isn't really church. it's a lecture class with singing in it.
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